october sky

i know it is outdated to be talking about "october sky" - the movie
but i will talk nonetheless. i will always talk abt movies that made me
cry. and this movie did just that twice. ya twice.
that could only mean that there is a part of me that hasn't fulfill its desire. what desire??!
havent u ever felt that u are meant to make a difference? or that u have not "arrived"?
honestly, have u?
i certainly have and that feeling is so damn strong and yet at the same time, i dont dare to consider it. i mean,. what if i think that i am meant to make a diff and then at the end of my life i didnt?? i would be so damn disappointed with myself. hence, is it better not to commit to something too altruistic or too big a magnititude? but i struggle, becos the desire doesnt die.
it has been there since young. so whenever i see a movie like october sky,,, i cry. becos a part of me is dying to serve. dying to make some good for us fellow people. dying to touch the hearts of ppe needing hope, light and love. to tell them that they can be whoever they wanna be and that i believe in them. to inspire them. very confusing right? i dont quite know why.

october sky is again, a movie based on a true story. Homer Hickam was a young boy in a 1950's mining town called Coalwood. his elder brother plays good football, has scholarship (and it is BIG deal) he is never a tough boy and is like a "cho bo" (do nothing teenager). one fateful nite in 1957, artificial satellite, Sputnik goes into orbit. Homer's jaws dropped. he cant think abt anything else except making rockets in his backyard. homer's father is the head of their small town coal mine co. very on, very strict. and his dream is for Homer to become a top-notch coal miner like him. (it was either u become a football player or a top-notch coal miner that makes u big deal, ya 1950s small town) so Homer suffers emotionally. his dad was never pround of him and homer hates the idea of being a miner. he feels that he is meant to make a diff. (see what i mean?) so he had lots of fights with his dad. many hurting exhanges. and his sch environment wasnt fantastic,, u know, sch principal thinks that u either become a football star, a coal miner or become a nobody. but there is this teacher who believes in her students. she encourages them to dream and dream big. blah blah blah, Homer & friends won the big deal science competition and he became highly sought-after. he eventually became an engineer at the NASA and he became the key personnel that shaped the history of rockets. (for real)
nice ending huh?

i hope u get a feel of it too.
; )